.later on...

I laugh reading my 'introduction blog.' How I was so curious as to what would happen sending my thoughts out into cyberspace..well, three months have taught me, well, actually-nothing happens. But I'm back and thinking of where my head was just three short months ago, so much has changed. For one, last month my beloved dog Wyatt was diagnosed with a very agressive form of cancer. It is hard to write in words of how devastating of a blow it was to hear such a diagnosis and much worse, the prognosis. I heard the words, I tried to process the information but all I could come up with was how much I wished to be an amnesiac, because once you're there, you can't go back. It changes everything.
One--probably the only one--beautiful thing that came from all of this is that I realized how much of Wyatt's life has been just a pure celebration of life itself--the simple things--taking longs walks, swimming, socializing with strangers, snuggling, enjoying his favorite foods (actually all food)--always experiencing life as if it was for the first time. Being able to see life through his eyes has been pure joy--I've always said if everyone could see life through Wyatt's eyes, what a wonderful world it would be. He literally, skips through life, smiling, nose up to the wind.
I guess that's all I have to say, for now. This past month has been a sea of emotions. I don't know how to say good-bye, before time is due. How can this funny, loving, happy spirit leave this Earth? I have moments of pure desperation, clinging, begging for more time. Please, please not him. But on the same note I plead that he not suffer. For all the love and goodness in him, allow him just one day to fall into an eternal sleep, quietly, with dignity.